Amazing...

I signed in the other evening to make a new post (finally). However due to the computer/iTouch, I was not able to write any text. Instead I quickly glanced at the last few entries. Once again I am reminded that I really should write things down and refer back to them. It was in April that I wrote about there not being enough time. Yet here I am in September wishing for more time. Some how all this time went by and I am still at the same point. It is time to start moving forward with new goals in mind.

Look out world, I am going to grab the pen and tackle a new goal or two!

Just another Manic Monday...

I have spent the good part of this morning and part of last night feeling sorry for myself because no one really cares about how I am doing. They just want to ask politely how you are doing and they expect to hear the normal answers. Anything outside the normal is something they do not want to hear. But somewhere during the drive back from lunch and walking back to my desk I realized something. It isn’t that no one cares; it is just that the majority of my time is spent with coworkers and they are the ones that really do not care. Your family and really good friends do care about your well being. Unfortunately most people do not get to see them most days (unless of course you work with your family).

I guess that is my one small revelation for the day. Time to get back to the grind. Perhaps with this new insight I will let up on myself and enjoy the day for what it is.

Life is a bowl of cherry pits!

I am just so angry, annoyed, upset, lost and confused and there really is nothing I can do to help out other than lend an attentive ear for listening and signing over my paycheck. Of course I am beating myself up for not taking the time in the beginning of July to look into other options as now is time is running out because of some crazy doctor! Some one I love will have to struggle back at work next week and there is nothing I can do. She has worked so hard, played by the rules and has paid her dues at least twice, but now she is on the verge of loosing her health insurance if she cannot stay at her job. Life just sucks!

I guess crying and moaning will not help the situation, but what else am I supposed to do? She lives by herself, is in debt and needs to keep the job that will slowly squeeze her out. I guess I know I should be saving every penny I can because the proverbial rainy day looks to be a huge downpour.

:(

4 is the magic Number....

It is amazing how something so big can become just ho hum when something bigger happens.

For me, the big countdown is the last few days at my current job. Long story short, the job was not the best fit for me. It may make for an amazing chick lit this summer as I have nothing else lined up right now. The crazy thing is, the timing couldn't be better. Family healthy issues popped up on Sunday, so now my mind is consumed with that. What a shame as I worked really hard at my job to not have the 'floating on air' feeling of leaving the place behind!

The crazy thing today, on Monday, I was the last one at my place to leave, yet I am the one with less than a week left to work. I either need to learn to focus more at work, work faster, or care less.